2 Days Left

I'm holding strong on my fasting. I cheated yesterday because I started feeling super dizzy at work. I ate half a kellogg fiber granola bar which was about 70 calories. This little bit of food encouraged a bowl movement that's good right? I feel like I haven't had one since I started this thing on thursday. I'm down to 123 yay! If I could just drop 3 more lbs by the 20th I'd be thrilled.

My life is getting super depressive and I think sticking to this is actually helping me pull through it. 2 days ago me and my husband decided it was probably best for both of us that we go our separate ways. Yesterday I guess he changed his mind. He came up and was trying to be cuddly with me and told me that he didn't want to lose me and that he could change and make sacrifices. I know it sounds terrible, but I just don't believe him... I mean he knew that certain things bothered me and it shouldn't take the thought of me leaving to make him want to change those things for me. And the things that I hate the most are personality qualities, like him being completely unwilling to help me out sometimes. This one time I forgot my binder at home and had 2 classes in a row. I called him and asked if he could bring it to me so I didn't have to miss my class. He said 'I'm not driving 40 minutes to get there.' Great thanks, way to show the love. IDK maybe I'm being unreasonable but I'm just not happy with someone that would offer to drive someone they just met home after a night of drinking but doesn't have the curtosy to call home and tell me he's going to be getting home at 3am when he didn't even tell me he was going out in the first place. I'm his wife not his roomate. He's not going to change overnight and it's time for me to move on. I'll just have to accept that. Yes it's going to be hard but I will survive.

My hands are shaking so bad. I don't know if it's from lack of food or frustration. It's true that you can't change someone...Sorry guys this is turning into my personal mess/dietting blog.