I'm so ugly

I'm looking at facebook pictures and untagging/deleting the ones of me when I was heavier. I'm just so disgusting in a lot of the pictures. I hate almost every picture there is of me because I hate the way I look. There are very few that I'm happy with. Fuck the camera. I'm super PMS'ing right now and I'm supposed to go to the movies with this guy tomorrow. I hope he doesn't think I'm a giant bitch for being snappy. Oh you poor men that have to deal with us messed up women. Is it really worth it? Apparently not since divorce rates rae so high.

I bought a box of donuts and at nearly the whole thing in 2 days...I think that's like 3000 calories. I'm so disgusting. I started eating this chicken roll thing but felt pretty bad about half way through it. Oh and something smells rank in the closet that we keep the garbage. Pee Yuuuu. I need to stop binging. Lately I've just been going with it and watching my weight climb to 126 on some days. After this weekend is over I'm going to fast for 10 days which is when I have my picnic planned. I want to get down to 120 for realzies. I'm through playing around.

I'm gonna grab a salad today for lunch and eat some of my sugar free jello for breakfast. Gonna hit the gym tonight after work. I will be strong and I will be thin and beautiful...eventually.