7 day fast starting tomorrow

I'll give myself credit. I put on a pretty good act of keeping it all together. Everyone I work with is like 'why aren't you a mess' and I just think to myself if you only knew the half of what I feel on a day to day basis. Failed relationships seem so easy to deal with when compared to the overwelming pain I feel when I look in the mirror. I ate less than half of what I binged on yesterday for dinner and I still feel like it was too much. My eyes are burning and my body is shaking from the cold. I need to do it starting tomorrow. I need to fast like I need air in my lungs. I need to have some ounce of control in my life at this moment. Please understand that I have to do this on my own. Fuck you life.

Breakfast
nothing

Lunch
Nachos (700 cal)

Dinner
Small plate of chicken and rice (~200 cal)

Snack
Birthday cake (400 cal)



Make the sad go away...